The Best.

Once you get what you want,
You've got something to lose

There are two kinds of secrets.
Those we keep from others...
And those we hide from ourselves.

Don't just look, observe..
Don't just swallow, taste..
Don't just sleep, dream..
Don't just think, feel...

If someone has something bad to say about you, it's probably because they have nothing good to say about themselves.
Don't just exist, live...

Everything you want comes after you stop looking for it...

When you love someone, they never get lost; wherever they go, they are still somewhere in your heart and as long as they know that, they will always know that when they find you, they find themselves once again.

Most people run because deep down, they want to be chased.

Behind the smile, behind the courage, behind the laughter, lies the hurt, the pain, the sorrow. Behind the mask, lies me. The me you never took the time to get to know.

whoever said "what you don't know, can't hurt you." was a moron.

because from what
i've been through,
not knowing, is the worst
feeling in the world.

It's just one of those days where you lock yourself in your room, crank the depressing music, curl up on your bed, and cry for no reason at all.

there are so many people out there who will tell you that you can't. what you've got to do is turn around and say "watch me"

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the things you did.

The day you learn how not to cry is the day you learn to hate.

in life, you don't get the people you want.
you get the people you need.
to teach you, to hurt you, to love you, to make you laugh.
to make you exactly the person you should be.

"When ever I have a Problem, I just sing. Then I know my voice is a lot worse then my Problem."

There's always gonna be that one thing
you hate but you can't change. That one
mistake you can't take back. &That one
memory you would do anything to have again.

There's going to be moments in life where you are going to want to turn back - that's when you have to go on.

Tragedy happens
What are you gonna do?
give up?
quit?
no..
I realize now that when your heart gets broken you gotta fight like hell and make sure your still alive
Cause you ARE and that pain you feel, thats life
The confusion and fear?
That's there to remind you that somewhere out there,
There's something BETTER & that something is worth fighting for


Don't tell me not to cry. Not this time, don't tell me to stop my tears, just let me get them out. And if that means crying till I'm sick and gasping and surrounded with a mountain of tissues, so be it. You might not realize it, but maybe that's what I need right now. Not to have my tears stopped, but to be given the freedom to finally let them out.

Sometimes we expect more from others, cause we would be willing to do that much for them.

Why do we always IGNORE those that ADORE us, ADORE those that IGNORE us. LOVE those that HURT us and HURT those that LOVE us??

We hide to be found... We walk away to see who will follow... We cry to see who will wipe away our tears... We let our hearts get broken to see who will fix them up again.

I think I'm afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens.

If you're thinking about giving up, don't because...
God gave you your life because he knows that you are the only one strong enough to handle it.

i'm gonna smile like i don't know the truth.

The truth is hard to swallow when you're choking on your pride...

at some point we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop trying to figure out precisley what we feel, stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel, && just rely on: whatever happens, happens.

I stopped throwing coins into the fountain a long time ago. I don't cross my fingers anymore or make a wish when I blow out my birthday candles. I guess it's because the normal side of me finally realized that no matter what dumb things I do, the things I wish for won't happen.

My teacher went around the classroom and asked each student what they wanted to be when they grew up. When she got to me, I told her I wanted to be happy. She told me I was missing the whole point of the question. I told her she was missing the whole point of life.

You gotta hurt in order to know, fall in order to grow, lose in order to gain, because most of lifes lessons are learned because of pain.

"My plan is to forgive and forget: forgive myself for being stupid, and forget you ever existed."

IT BREAKS YOUR HEART;
when people you know, became people you knew.when you can walk right past them as if they were never a huge part of your life. you used to be able to talk for hours, and now you cant even look at them in the damn eye. it completely breaks your heart to know that things change, and theres nothing you can do about it.

Anything worth the tears is worth fighting for.

In your life you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again, but you do...

I Just Wanted To Say:

Nobody said that things like this would be easy. If you want the easy way out, than be my guest. But it takes Pain to Conquer the Game of Life. You have to fight for the things that you want. You're going to hurt people no matter what. But everybody learns to Let Go. But I'm not taking the easy way out. I'm not going to slip that easily. Think about everything you have been through, before you just simply, throw it all away. The easy way out, is the COWARDS way out. But I'm not fearful of being a Coward, I only have a fear of losing everything I had ever dreamed of, everything I worked for, everything I made up to, all the way til' now, just to lose it. That's all I gotta say. I don't like the hard way out, but that doesn't mean I'm taking the easy way out.

This Song is SICK.

These all Represent What I'd Like to Say:

The lyrics of the song are what mean the most.

Micheal Vick Reinstated

Michael Vick just got Reinstated into the NFL! I'm so happy for him. A time like this gives my life hope through all I've been. He's been through worse, and in the end, something amazing happens. I love Michael Vick.

Hey You

I just wanna know:

WHERE IS THE LOVE?

I'm really exhausted. I feel like a workaholic. I need a day off. And I'm happy to get it soon. But only two days. Than it's back to work from MORNING TO CLOSING. Repeatedly. This is really bad. I can't wait to quit and find a job that is appealing to me, and that doesn't deal with such ignorant people. Right now though, my mom really needs the dough, so I'm going to have to hold on for a while and keep that cash flow going. I'm really tired though. My head aches and my legs too. But No pain, No gain.

Anyways, just when I thought I was over my first love, I realized now, that I'm not. I really have so much to say to him; things that I just want to scream and yell at him for, but what for? But it's burning in my heart to be taken out. I want it out of my system. But I don't want to hurt anybody. This whole situation, I got my hopes up, and only burned myself. I knew this was coming, but why didn't I prevent it? I'm starting to hate him. I see his face and I just fucking hate him. Its to the point where I've only built hatred towards this being. It's the wrong thing to do, especially towards someone I loved entirely with my heart, but I don't want to, but I'm starting to. I realized that I wasn't getting over him. The feeling I was receiving was the strength of hatred towards him. But I don't hate him. I just.. I don't know. But I need to tell him so much, even if he doesn't want to hear it, or listen. But I really need this out of me. I think the best thing to do is stay away from him. Just stay away. Cause if I get any closer, I'm 100% more than likely, to get burned again.

I'm really proud of myself. Man. I thought that I'd never ever get over my first love, but I'm starting to. I'm not completely over him, but I finally feel some weight off my shoulders. That fear of losing him, it happened, and that is what traumatized me the most. It was like I was going through Rehab, but now I'm better. And he didn't love me, so why am I so sad for? I don't care at all. I'm proud that I was able to truly love another human being. Whether he didn't or whatever, I am proud of myself, for having that much heart. Now, my eyes are looking brighter, and now that I realize it, he isn't worth my depression. He isn't worth killing myself. Because if he was, he still would be with me. He would've stuck by me. But I forgive him. It's okay. I'm just proud of myself. I'm not completely gone, there's still hurt there. Still love there, but I'm looking beyond that. It's all about Me, Myself, and I.

It's okay to lose your pride over someone you love, but
don't lose someone you love over your pride.

The Best.

My Epiphany.

I'm lost right now. And I deserve all of what I'm going through. I'm looking for trust. And there is not a soul that I see it from. But don't worry. Because I don't even trust myself. In order to trust another I must first, trust myself. I'm still learning how to do that. What happens today, will change tomorrow. What happened yesterday is just a blur. I once was only a lover. But now I have broken into a lover and a fighter. I'm not great, but I will be when given the chance. I'm scared of a lot. I've been taken over by fear. But I still have a warm heart. I am no longer bitter, because I chose what followed my past. I live to bring Peace, when in my heart, I am going through hell. But I'm going to fight for a better world even if it kills me. I am sorry to everyone I have hurt. This time, I promise, I'll leave you alone. Goodbye.

Its about time I grow up. Seriously. Living off some fucked fantasy that I was fighting for, for no reason. I made a fool of myself, and wasted my life for months. I'm not proud of pointing out mistakes, but you know what. This one was a mistake. And I'm proud to point it out. I'm proud to face this, and in the end, I'm going to fight through what ever so this shit doesn't break me. I see this kid's face everywhere. Everything I touch, I feel his presence. I will always remember him. Always will. And all the shit he said to me, did to me, I'll forgive him. And I will forget it all. I'm not going to hold onto it. You know; that phrase, "I forgive, but never forget". Nah. Not me. I'm going to forgive and I'm going to forget. I'm going to forget ABOUT HIM.

Right now it's going to be really hard for me. I'm in some sort of Rehab from this kid. But I found a reason to live for. And that is for my best friend and my family. Not myself. But for the people I care for the most.

God show me a way because the Devil's tryna break me down.