I'm In Love.

OH MYYY BUDDHAAAAA! THIS BOY IS SOOOOOOOO CUTE! AND HE CAN SING! AND ITS GEORGE NOZUKA'S SONG! AND HE SAYS MY NAME! OH MY BUDDHA!!!!!!!!!!!! (P.S. - HE'S ASIAN!!!!)

George Nozuka

I la la la la LOVE him. He's super Sexy. And these songs of his, his voice, his words, make me melt inside ;)

But for 'TALK TO ME' , you gotta turn up the volume just a little bit more, to get that OOMPH! that melts you :P

Talk to me - George Nozuka

Unfaithful

I am strongly ashamed and disgusted of myself, thus far. How can I do such a cruel thing? What is going through my head? I promise not to contradict myself and yet I am guilty of my actions. But what ever. I'm gonna let my life flow, as the path must go.

I Just Want To Be A Real Girl.

Its like I'm looking for something out there and I'm trying to find something.
But I look in the mirror and see me, and see nothing.
Merry Belated Christmas.

Pinocchio Story

This song. Something about this song. Really hits me. I love it. Kanye Baby, I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

And...

its already the EVE of CHRISTMAS. Tomorrow is Christmas. Lately, things couldn't have been more lovely. My friends are soooo... I LOVE THEM! I can't really express it. I'm so happy. My environment is trash, and this has got to be the coldest Winter ever, my fingers are numb, half the time I'm freezing to death, but having the people in my life, melts away the cold. I feel horrible. I am a horrible daughter though. I'm a suck ass cousin. I'm just bad. I'm dirty. Wrong. Half these people who love me, are wrong. They shouldn't. I'M A GRINCH. But I'm still contemplating. I'm still confused. I can't find the answer. I CAN'T. So let me know, you know? Why. Just tell me WHY.

Mi Amor.

I love somebody. At least I think I do. Its childish. But I mean, I love someone. Not crazy head over heels, but there's definitely a rush of warmth when we meet. I care so much. All I want to do is hold you. Be with you. Love you forever. You are so special to me. I love you so much. Its not your looks. Its not your money. Its you. And I want you. All of you, to me.

And now at this moment, I have tears. They're rolling and falling.

Falling as I fell for you.

But I, I'm sorry.
I love you so much.
But its not gonna work.
There are so many holding me back.

I can't do this anymore.
I don't want to hurt anyone.

You Are Great

Its really crazy how things fall together and how they just happen. I'm so lucky. I really am. I'm not going to say everything, but I will say enough. I realized that in order to get something, you have to go out and get it yourself. You have to do things crazy in order to get what you want. Not always, but occasionally.

I've been waiting for today for the longest time. It felt like months since I've waited, and now, its over. I was so anxious to get out of school today just to do what I had planned. Now I am not one to make plans, and for once, when I DID make a plan, it worked out so beautifully. I'm so happy. I had so much fun. With someone very amazing. Although I felt horribly ugly and much worse, I hope that he/she enjoyed their time with me, as I did for them. I love that person. They're awesome! :)

But I feel guilty.
So guilty.

me.

i'm mean.
i'm stupid.
i'm ugly.
i'm bad.
i'm a horrible daughter.