Farewell to A Teacher Who Was Once An Enemy:

Dear Mr. Hauswald,

With all my respect Sir, please hear my words. I'm not sure why you are leaving, but if anything, I know that we both know that we feel some kind of a disliking of one another. If you don't, I want to be truthful and admit that I feel that on certain occassions. But now Sir, I want you to know that, I did not write this because I feel pity, or that I am sucking up, but I wrote this as a Person to speak all my thoughts I have promised myself to once tell you. I don't hate you Sir. I never did. I never will. I didn't NOT like you Sir, but I always felt singled out at times. I like you Sir. I respect you Sir and I always will. I want to say Thank You Sir. Thank You for everything you have taught me, everything you know, and Thank You for your kindness; Because overall, I have to admit, you are one kind man. And I mean it all the way to the moon and back, 1 million times. You are amazing and your path that you chose, or what ever kind of wind that turned your way, I wish you the best Sir. I wish that you make it to the top and share your Kindness with the world. These 5 1/2 months that you were here, were phenomenal. You are a blessing to all people around. You have the gift to influence the minds of the future. You went out here and did something that billions of people could NEVER do. You are gifted, and I respect that. Your future deserves better. You deserve to do better, and Be Better. There is nothing wrong with that. And Sir, IN LIFE, if you're ever upset, just hold tight. Squeeze out the weakness and accept that what has happened, is done and over with. Accept that what was done, was done for a reason; A reason of greater and infinite vigorous things. Don't cry, or Fear. Because all that is done against you, towards you, about you, of you, TO you, will strengthen who you are and who you will be. Don't be ashamed for certain actions, because you do the best you can. Do not question why things happene, or even why things happen to you directy. Do not dwell on your mistakes. Think of them. Learn from them, and MOVE ON. Things are done and over with. They all have a reasoning. Do not fret over the reasoning, just take what you have, understand the situation, and take your next step to SUCCESS. He who dwells on his past for too long, becomes his past. Be STR0NG. Victoria Lovely (Lovely) thanks you, admires you, and RESPECTS YOU. And So Does EVERYONE ELSE AROUND YOU. And PLEASE, don't reply. Just Be Happy and accept my words. Everything Will Fall Together, and you will be fine. I thank you again Sir. Thank You. Thank You. Thank You. Thank You! May your life be full of happiness, strength, love, success, luck, and all of the good blessings of humanity.

Take Care,

Your Student,
Victoria Lovely

I Could Die Right Now For All I Care..

I don't know if my life is real anymore. I mean straight up, I've just hit REAL-ALITY. I don't want to believe certain things, but what I fear nearly almost THE most, has happened. Why can't I live my life as I choose to. Why? I just want to die, because this hurts SO much. And everybody's watching me. I have to watch what I do. Watch what I say. Watch how I act, and basically live as I choose NOT to. All for my parents. Because if I don't, I get beat. I get called the lowest of all names. And most of all, I become a Disgrace. I always thought that it didn't matter. I was up to be a disgrace as long as I'm happy, living as I choose. But no matter what, something pulls me back, or holds me down from my happiness. I thought that no matter what the situation, I could do it. But I realized, I can't. No I can't. And what I dream of.....it will never...nope....it'll Never happen.

Welcome to My Heartbreak.

If you love somebody, you give them care. You give them a commitment through your eyes, through your words, through your voice, through your heart, through your touch, and through your Hands. You give them love and you build their emotions up. They return the favor, and together, you become One. I say I love you. You say you love me. But I ask if we're together, and you say NO.

Welcome to my heartbreak. Am I blind? Am I a mess? Who are you?

I don't know you anymore.

Sweetest Savior Soulmate

Hey. How are ya`? I feel this wall. We were mad. I was mad. I was childish. I was wrong. I AM SORRY. And I miss you. I miss you. I Miss You.

Sweetheart, I Miss You. <3

Good Night.

Some People

surely are arrogant as hell. I finally got a new phone and I am very happy. Although I am still sick, I try hard to still hold onto my friendships through texting. Even when they all know, I HATE TEXTING. I do it for them.

Anyways, I don't swallow solid foods very well with my condition, so I was just eating some soybean tofu soupy stuff. While masticating, I get a text from this boy Charles. I call him Brockli, simply because he has this fro' and he looks like a Brockli! =D Hehe, just a Victoria Lovely signature of giving silly nicknames.

Moving on, it went a little something like this:

BROCKLI: What u doing today?!
VICTORIA LOVELY: "Nothing, I'm still sick :("
BROCKLI: "UR ALWAYS SICK!"
VICTORIA LOVELY: "What the hell is that supposed to mean?"
BROCKLI: " UM! U A"
VICTORIA LOVELY: "Well thanks. For showing me what an inconsiderate, rude, and immature person yew are. Peace."

On New Year's Eve, I had told him I was sick, and he never texted back.
He never texted back since than, until THIS encounter.

Now, Tell me why, I'm just curious.. why are people like this?
I really don't need people ON me, kissing my feet and loving me 24/7,
but at least show some courtesy and generosity to understand that ME BEING SICK
IS NOT MY FAULT!!! NO!!! REALLYYYY IT ISN'T!

Ugh! What a FRIEND!

My Theory On Kissing

I am as innocent as innocent gets, So Judgments - Fall Back.
A little something I recently told someone, when he mentioned about receiving a Kiss from Me.

"You must let kisses fly. Like a Bird. Let it flow - gently, naturally, like when a bird first flies; it's not gonna be easy to get, but be patient, You'll get it."

Cher mon amour

Now I'm selfish
And maybe, its okay
Because having you in my life, Clown,
Brightens my each and everyday.
Like the sun's warmth wrapped around one's skin,
Me on you is a deadly sin.

Come over here,
Nothing's right without you.
All around is dark and I'm feeling blue.
Even in the daylight, I can't see the sky
Hardeep Singh Aujla
You damn clown, without you, I'd Die.

The One Above

Well. There's something strange about the way He puts his magic to work. With the reasoning and everything, I trust Him, because it's my life, and everything He has already done, has made me everything I am. Currently, I have blisters, warts, canker sores ; filled with pus, and agonizing pain, swimming through every corner and anatomy of my mouth, leading out to my bottom lip, and its zoo of infectious warts. Its hard to smile, hard to drink, and nearly impossible to eat, with this burning pain with every sway of wind passing its way. I'm sick. Yes I know that. I am. And I missed three days of school, soon to be five, and soon to be three days of my Nursing Internship. I pray to Him, that he will allow these somewhat Racist administrators of mine, to excuse me through compassion and understanding. If anything, whether it being my attitude, the shape of my eyes, the color of my skin, my lack of intelligence, my sarcastic kindness, or my wrong vibe I some what bring them, please have them - Let them, have the fathom, and understanding, and sympathy or even empathy, to put aside their immoral morals and excuse me for a sickness I have little authority over. It's a new year, new resolutions, new president (OBAMA BABY!), new world, new day, new time, new second, new hour, new minute. Grow up. Learn. Through compassion and through unity. I may not be Caucasian, but I am Human. Please let the One Above paint my path through blessings, happiness, love, kindness, and lead me to Success. As I wish for all others to receive as well.

Peace.

Happy New Year's Day

I've been sick for three days now. I feel like crap. Nobody knows. Its so weird. I talk fine, look fine, but inside I'm dying. I don't know whats wrong. Pray for me, please. Please, Pray for me.