I don't know if my life is real anymore. I mean straight up, I've just hit REAL-ALITY. I don't want to believe certain things, but what I fear nearly almost THE most, has happened. Why can't I live my life as I choose to. Why? I just want to die, because this hurts SO much. And everybody's watching me. I have to watch what I do. Watch what I say. Watch how I act, and basically live as I choose NOT to. All for my parents. Because if I don't, I get beat. I get called the lowest of all names. And most of all, I become a Disgrace. I always thought that it didn't matter. I was up to be a disgrace as long as I'm happy, living as I choose. But no matter what, something pulls me back, or holds me down from my happiness. I thought that no matter what the situation, I could do it. But I realized, I can't. No I can't. And what I dream of.....it will never...nope....it'll Never happen.
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