Its about time I grow up. Seriously. Living off some fucked fantasy that I was fighting for, for no reason. I made a fool of myself, and wasted my life for months. I'm not proud of pointing out mistakes, but you know what. This one was a mistake. And I'm proud to point it out. I'm proud to face this, and in the end, I'm going to fight through what ever so this shit doesn't break me. I see this kid's face everywhere. Everything I touch, I feel his presence. I will always remember him. Always will. And all the shit he said to me, did to me, I'll forgive him. And I will forget it all. I'm not going to hold onto it. You know; that phrase, "I forgive, but never forget". Nah. Not me. I'm going to forgive and I'm going to forget. I'm going to forget ABOUT HIM.

Right now it's going to be really hard for me. I'm in some sort of Rehab from this kid. But I found a reason to live for. And that is for my best friend and my family. Not myself. But for the people I care for the most.