Okay. Lets get down to it. I admit it. I am selfish. I am selfish and I want you all to myself. No Homo or anything. Its just that I don't have anybody else, and you've always been there for me since part 1. It hurts to know that you must admit that you've hadn't had this much fun in a long time. It hurts to hear you say that because I'm with you nearly all the time. And it is NOW that you feel happy. So that means whenever you are with me, I'm just another day, another that, another this and I am just there. Maybe its just me, but when I'm with you, I am so happy. I am so happy because I'm with my Best Friend. And I am so happy because I love her. She is my sister. My guardian. And my freakin' homie. But she goes out with others for a nice time, and her whole life has brightened up. But when with me, now I know the truth. Now I know that I was right. I always felt like I wasn't good enough. I always knew that. But you'd tell me otherwise. But in my heart I could feel, that no, this cannot be true. I just knew it. But I brushed it off because I trusted you. I took your word. I just played along, hoping that just for once, this was an achieved acceptance and a dream. Not a nightmare like everything else. And now I know. Now I know, that I, I seriously can't do anything right. Now I knew it. I felt it. I feel it. I proved myself right again, that I can't be understood ever. And that ME being around doesn't make a difference. I know now that I can't make anyone happy anymore. And you know what? I am hurt. I am sad. I am Mad. Because I, I love too much. I trust too easily, I get my hopes too high. And its just me. I'm my own problem. I give in and care too much. When the people I love the most, can't feel anything when I'm there.
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